Thank You

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For the last six months or so, maybe even a bit longer, it has been hard for me to write regularly here on ArtDuh. The truth is, my mind has been focused on other things.

The world has been getting stranger and stranger for a long time. This world has been weird for as long as I can remember, but man-o-man, it is really damn weird at this point in time. 2016 is just… so weird! Seems to me we’ve all, the human race has, collectively gone a bit crazy. No need to go into details, because pretty much every person I know can see and would agree. We all know and feel how strange it has become.

Still, there is every reason to hope too. This life, this world, and the people in it are beautiful.

See… I have so many things running through my mind, all the time, but I just don’t know how to articulate my thoughts properly. So that is why I haven’t been writing very regularly here on ArtDuh. And, although I am sure I will be back and writing more often at some point, I won’t be posting a whole lot for now and for a little while.

Not to worry though. My mind and imagination are filled with ideas and new artwork. I’ve never felt so inspired to create. I already have so much artwork I am proud of, I work on new art every day, and I have so many ideas I look forward to completing. I expect it’ll take me the rest of my life to finish everything I want to make. Two, probably three lifetimes, really. So much to do, so little time.

I will say this… please, please, please get out in nature as much as you can. Walk under the trees, meet some animals, look at the mountains. That is our hope. If we can’t all, individually and together, develop an appreciation for the natural world that we are a part of then we are truly fucked. If we can’t see that a healthy natural world trumps any economic model, then we are doomed. Nature is not simply a commodity… a resource to be exploited, extracted or harvested, repackaged, and sold back to you with tax and interest… until its dead. Nature is our life, our breath, our water, our health. It is you.

Anyway, if you’ve read this far, thank you. I’ve really enjoyed ArtDuh, and have liked writing and posting. I will still upload and share new artwork from time to time, but I’ll change the name of the blog here soon. You’ll always be able to get to this blog using ArtDuh.com as the web address, but I will probably change the name and branding. I started this here blog with Anna about six or seven years ago. Anna stopped writing a few years later, focused on other things, and that’s cool. I found I still liked writing, and tried to maintain my weekly posts the best I could, but I always kind of thought of ArtDuh as Anna’s.

So maybe I’ll change the name to songsfromtheearth.com. Seems like the name might be a little long, but maybe it’ll do for now…

I’d also invite you to check out my personal website, toddpowelson.com. Check out some of my past work, and look there for new artwork too. Also, if you’re able and have a few sheckles to spare, please consider buying some artwork. That kind of support always means a lot to any artist. If you don’t have any spare coins, that is a-okay too. Take a look around and enjoy.

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So why the picture of the moon?

I started writing this post under that November ’16 super-moon (Ha! Took a long time to finish). I walk every day, and in the winter months I usually find myself walking after dark. I’d walk up into the hills, thinking on the strange way America has gone, is still going, and see the weird things developing in my personal life… and there was the moon looking down on it all. This huge super-moon shining its silver light, illuminating us all. That was over a month ago now, but the moon has a brand new significance for me…

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Wisdom Rests

"Wisdom Rests" by Todd Powelson

“Wisdom Rests” by Todd Powelson

I finished this new artwork, called “Wisdom Rests” (above), a couple of weeks ago but held off on sharing earlier because I wanted to look a little more, and be sure it was done… and, yep, it is done! I worked on Wisdom Rests every day for a couple of months, and it took a lot of time to complete, but I am so happy to see the new piece.

This artwork is a companion to another recent work, called “Wisdom Descends“, and both are part of my larger series, “Songs from the Earth“. Below is a little ditty I wrote to go with my newest artwork here:

Through the great Dark and shattered Light, She steps.
Onward, toward Her Sun.
His red roar becomes a background hum.
His orange glow warms Her body.
And She rests.

In my new artwork you see the sun as a lion, and the earth as a woman. I am interested in mythology, and humanity has always placed characters from our various mythologies up into the stars and onto the planetary bodies. I want that tradition to continue in my work, and use historic symbols to represent objects in space. By associating the sun, planets and stars with a human and animal form, they suddenly become much more relatable.

This artwork is available for purchase as a limited canvas print through toddpowelson.com.

Serpent

"Rainbow Serpent"

“Rainbow Serpent”

I’ve been looking at snakes… Wanting to see snakes and how they are being used in other’s artwork. I’m sure it’s because I’ve been seeing so many on my walks outside, up in the hills. One time in particular really stands out for me, and dropped all sorts of new ideas into my imagination.

It’s been a few weeks now, but back in late May or early June, I was out a-walking along the dirt and gravel trail. While I walk I tend to scan ahead of me, but where I was walking the grass on the side of the trail can get a bit long and hard to see through. I don’t mind snakes at all, but when I hear a rattle, it can really make me jump, ya know? And I heard a rattle on my left. Of course, I moved quickly in the other direction, to my right. As I moved, I looked over my shoulder, and there it was… a rattlesnake.

You know how some moments gain weight, and seconds seem to stretch out forever? Well, I locked eyes with that snake, time seemed to stop, and we both just looked. Then, those eternal seconds passed, the rattlesnake moved off in the other direction, but I still stood watching.

I watched it move away through the grass, under a nearby tree and the dead leaves. Something about it was just so damn beautiful. What immediately came to mind as I watched was… Well, I seemed to be watching a powerful little reptile dragon. It’s brown scales standing out from the green. It’s rattle buzzing as it moved away. Amazing.

It also dropped all of these exciting new ideas for future artwork into my imagination as it left. A nice old mind bomb.

Snakes are out and about this time of year. I’d already seen a fair number of snakes in the days and weeks before, but something about this specific rattlesnake. Locking eyes with it…

And then, for the next week or so, there seemed to be snakes everywhere. I’d see them all over the place. In that week or so that followed, I came across 15-20 more snakes on my walks. Like I say, snakes are out and you’ll see them, but each of those snakes seem to be reminding me that my new ideas are important. I have to do something with them. And I will. It might take some time, I have so many things I’m working on first, but I will visit with that rattlesnake again in my artwork.

And I guess that is why I’m posting these images here. I want to see snakes, and remember… and I’ll start by collecting a little reference artwork right here.

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Kitagawa Utamaro, 1788

Kitagawa Utamaro, 1788

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"Snake", by Katie Scott

“Snake”, by Katie Scott

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Wisdom Descends

"Wisdom Descends" by Todd Powelson

“Wisdom Descends” by Todd Powelson

Down from the great light spiral She steps,

Spirits great and small follow close behind.

The digital painting (above), called “Wisdom Descends”, was a whole lot of fun to make but took me a very long time to finish. Whew, I’m so glad to see it done, and so happy with how She turned out.

This artwork is based on the old Gnostic story of Sophia. I’ll admit, the story has evolved and changed in my own mind and imagination, but its still heavily inspired by those original Gnostic thinkers.

For me, in my own personal mythology, Sophia (a.k.a. Wisdom) has come to represent the spirit and life-force of the Earth. She is the Earth, and the Earth is something Her spirit created and stepped down into. The Earth is Her material body, and Her spirit and soul sleeps and dreams us all (plants, animals, people) into being.

I know it probably sounds weird, but this is also something that makes me very happy to think about.

Visually, I wanted to focus primarily on the figure, geometry, color, and abstraction. When I started this piece, I’d planned on filling the background with a whole lot more geometry, pattern and shapes, but as I continued working I liked the idea of just leaving the background pure white. Representing the light Sophia is leaving, in favor of the earth-tones of Her material body. The sky and cloud colored fabric morphs into a celestial wing, and in the geometry of that wing you can see hints of animal (primarily bird) shapes following close behind (click the image above for a larger view).

You can buy this as a high quality 20″ x 10″ or a 40″ x 20″ canvas print through my website by visiting www.toddpowelson.com

This artwork will begin Chapter 4 of my “Songs from the Earth” series, and you can check out the rest of that series by clicking here.

Infinite Worlds

"Infinite Worlds" by Todd Powelson

“Infinite Worlds” by Todd Powelson

I just finished the new artwork above, called “Infinite Worlds”. The basic theme of the piece is something I return to from time to time, but I am not completely sure how to write about it or explain why… I will try though.

I guess I will start by giving a little of my own personal background and how my beliefs and worldview have evolved over the years.

Although I was raised with religion, by the time I was out of high school, I had lost all faith. I lost it for a number of different reasons I am sure, reasons I won’t go into. What made sense to me at the time was a much more materialist view of the world. I believed in my meat body, what I could perceive with my physical body, and that me and the larger world were complex physical and chemical processes that had no real meaning. Creation seemed to be a kind of accident that happened through dumb luck and chance. Even so, I was still extremely curious about the world and obsessed with learning as much about science and philosophy as I could. The more I read and researched though, the more I had this nagging thought…

How do I explain this? It was evolution that started to bring glimpses of the divine and infinite back into my thoughts. Physics too I suppose, but primarily biology and evolution. In time I began to have a nagging thought, over and over, that there was some sort of sub-conscious mind running through nature, guiding the way that different species would evolve. Something guiding the way species of plants and animals would customize their descendant’s body, over time and many generations, in response to the environment. I hope this’ll make sense… For example, an individual moth’s consciousness doesn’t tell its body and wings to grow into patterns that resemble a large owl face in order to scare off predators. How does the moth even really register and know the appearance of the owl? Let alone know it well enough to change its body, change its whole species over many generations, to look like an owl? But that happens, and the moth is just one example. This happens over and over, in every species, to some degree. And yet the individual animal, its individual consciousness, isn’t controlling the process. Something larger is. Anyway, I still believe in evolution. I thinks it is a beautiful process. But I began to suspect that there was something moving through nature, what I started to think of as nature’s sub-conscious mind, doing things like changing whole species of moth to grow their bodies with owl faced wings. And then I began to realize that by thinking of it as a sub-conscious mind… well, the implication was that there would be a conscious mind running through nature too. Can you have a sub-conscious mind without also having a conscious mind?

I imagine that a materialist reading these words might believe I’m flat out wrong and have another explanation. I really don’t care though. I’ve come to know that materialism is wrong. Or, at the very least, is incomplete.

Anyway, back to my new artwork… Around the same time I was coming to these conclusions, I must have been 24 or 25, I had this dream. A very important dream that, over time, helped change my way of thinking, the way I see the world and every living thing, including myself.

In my dream I was in a large dark cave sitting in front of an urn filled with burial ashes. The lid of the urn was open. A strong wind rose and blew the ashes into my face, blowing my spirit right out of that cave with that ash. Up over the landscape, past the horizon, into the atmosphere. Eventually I saw the moon zip by, then the inner planets, and then the sun. I was moving through and past the solar system, out into deep space. I began to see larger patterns emerge while moving through the galaxy, through and beyond the Milky Way. Moving beyond galaxies and galactic clusters, I began to see this pattern slowly taking shape. Writing the dream out like this makes it seem like I must have been moving fast, but I was moving slowly through the universe. I was traveling slow, slow, slow. But eventually I was outside of it all and I could see the overall pattern and form. I could see the overall shape of the universe, and it wore a human form. It was this dark human form living in and surrounded by a bright bright white light. And I could tell that the Universe was alive and moving. It was slowly lifting itself up off of the ground, so slow its movement was imperceptible, but I knew it was alive and moving as if to stand.

Writing it down seems… I don’t know… I don’t consider myself to be that great with words. But I have returned to this dream a few times in my artwork. Trying to capture it and understand my dream a little bit better, and what it means to me.

Do I really think that this Universe wears a human form? I don’t know. What I do believe is: the Universe is alive. It’s alive, and everything in the Universe is an important part of a beautiful living system. A living and conscious Universe.

Over the years I’ve come to realize that the living Universe is a very ancient understanding. Adam Kadmon, Brahman, and so many others. Even modern science (granted, maybe not completely embraced science) can see the possibility if we consider biocentrism, the implications of Rupert Sheldrake‘s work, and even the holographic principle.

Speaking of the holographic universe… I was introduced to this concept at around the same time I had my dream. The basic idea is that the Universe is similar to a hologram, in that you can divide a hologram in two and each piece will still have all of the information contained in the original. Divide the pieces again, and still, the four pieces will contain all of the original information. Divide the hologram an infinite number of times and, yes, each piece will contain all of the original information. Its very possible the Universe works the same way. As pieces and important parts, it could be that each of us contain the whole Universe inside ourselves. You do, I do, the rocks and minerals do, the plants and trees outside, every animalevery man and woman, the earth and all other planets, the sun and stars, even that moth that looks a lot like an owl does too. It is all alive, a perfect reflection of the larger Universe.

Whew, a long post.

All of that is what I call “Infinite Worlds”.

You can buy this artwork as a high quality 24″ x 16″ canvas print over at toddpowelson.com, or by emailing me at toddpowelson (at) comcast.net .

This is part of my “Songs from the Earth” series, and you can check out the rest of that artwork by clicking here.

 

A Message from Horus?

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It may be obvious if you scroll through my recent posts, but I’ll just restate that I’ve got ancient Egypt on my mind. I haven’t really sought it out, but Egypt keeps popping up in documentaries and in the books I’ve been reading. Well, maybe I have sought it out a bit because I did read the Corpus Hermeticum twice this week. But still, Egypt has been popping up spontaneously in other places too.

I wrote a couple of weeks ago about a dream of Osiris and his family that I had a while back, and explained that it seemed I needed to use that dream in some way. Work with it creatively somehow. Well, I have a pretty good idea on how to use the idea now, and it keeps unpacking itself in my mind and becomes more and more interesting to me all the time.

The truth is though, as an artist, it can be easy to question yourself. Is this idea really a good one?  Is it worth my time? Where do I start? Etc.

Recently, while I was walking up in the hills, I was having these sort of questions. But I was also thinking of my new idea too. Thinking of Osiris. Thinking of his son Horus. What’s weird is, while I was thinking about Horus there was this birds in the trees on my right. I could sort of see it and hear it moving, but it flew away pretty quickly too. Then, about a half an hour later or so walking the other way back down the canyon, having these same questions, thinking of Horus, Osiris and my new idea…

This great big shape came flying down at me on the trail. A bird. So close, at first I thought it’d fly right into me. But it didn’t hit me. Instead, it called out and flew into the trees to my left and perched there about 15 feet or so away from me. A hawk. We just watched each other for a while, a few minutes at least. Usually, I find that the birds I come across up close don’t really want me to take their photo, but this hawk didn’t care. Even after a few minutes of watching each other, it stayed patiently in the tree to let me take a blurry photo (below), and then flew away.

As I walked on, I saw the hawk flying overhead through the trees, and over the next few minutes and could hear it calling out. I could also hear another hawk replying from further away. I started wonder if I might have been by a nest or something, and maybe that was why the hawk flew down and me and stuck around. I don’t know, but I wondered.

A little side experience that I also liked… about 20 minutes later a deer also came charging up from the stream below, running right in front of me. We didn’t spend time looking at each other though. The deer was off and away, running up into the trees.

I wasn’t sure if I should write this post. To try and explain this encounter and what the hawk meant to me. What it meant to me is personal after-all, and I don’t expect it to mean much to anyone else. Also, it might seem silly to a lot of people, but I guess I don’t mind. The modern world likes to tell us that in our materialist world, these things just happen and really have no significance. And maybe they don’t rationally… but the world isn’t completely rational.

For me, in my own mind and imagination, these things always have meaning. On a personal level, I think everybody should pay attention and listen to these kind of experiences. When a hawk comes to you and hangs out for a bit while you’ve been thinking about Horus, and whether or not you should pursue a creative idea involving him… well, I think that is important.

Aristotle said, “Art completes what Nature cannot finish.” There is some truth there. But that completion cannot happen if we don’t listen to those personal messages that Nature is sending our way, no matter how subtle.

Maybe that hawk is just kinda saying “go for it kid. Why not?” And I agree, why not. It may take me some time to get to the idea, I’ve got so many other things I am working on, but I am excited to put Horus down on paper (even if Horus is really a falcon).

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Let’s Rap With Cap About Conspiracy!

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First off, I should say this post has spoilers for the new Captain America movie, so quit reading if ya don’t like that sort of thing. Second, this post contains a number of “real life” conspiracy theories that were addressed in the new Captain America movie, so quit reading if ya don’t like that sort of thing.

The new Captain America: The Winter Soldier is an entertaining movie, which is the most important thing in the end. Its just a movie. A superhero movie. But I’m kinda partial to superhero flicks. Turns out, this has easily become a favorite.

In addition to it being a great film though, I saw a whole lot of what many people believe to be real-life conspiracies being played out on the screen. I don’t necessarily buy into all of the good old conspiracy theory stuff, but I don’t dismiss out of hand either. At the very least, I think it is important to stay informed and be able to see the issues from multiple angles. And its plain to see that there is a whole lot of bullshit going on in the world now.

Anyway, seeing these conspiracies play out on the screen was kind of like a slap in the face the first time I saw the movie. When I saw it again, I decided I’d write about it.

The main plot has Hydra infiltrating S.H.I.E.L.D. and that is a good place to start. In Marvel Comics, Hydra begins as an arm (or hydra-head) of the Nazi party during WWII. Hydra begins to take on a life of its own over time, but it has its roots with the Nazi. In the movie, Hydra infiltrates S.H.I.E.L.D. through coercion and deception in order to take over the US government. Okay, so that is Marvel’s history. In our real world, it could be said that something similar has been going down.

Its well established that during his rise to power, Hitler got a huge bulk of his funding from many American corporations and banks. It is a historical fact that some of these corporations were involved with eugenics research, gave money, support, provided raw materials and weaponry to the Nazi party and Hitler. A side note, but it also well established that George Herbert Walker and Prescott Bush (former President George W. Bush Sr.’s grandpappy and father, dis-respectively) helped Hitler rise to power. Another side note, it is also known that Prescott Bush helped plan a government coup in 1933 meant to topple President Franklin D. Rossevelt, because Bush believed that fascist policy would get America through the Great Depression.

Fast forward a little bit. In the movie, after the end of WWII, a number of Nazi scientists were brought over to America where they were allowed to continue their research. Well, in the really-real world this also happened. Hundreds of Nazi scientists were brought over to work with the American military under Operation Paperclip. Many of those (former? current?) Nazis rose to positions of power in our own government, probably most the famous being Wernher von Braun, who went on to become a director of NASA. I’ll leave it to you to imagine how deep their influence went.

Alrighty, back to the movie where S.H.I.E.L.D. is run by a world council which decides the fate of nations. Well, that looked a lot to me like the much anticipated New World Order back here in our world. Or maybe the Bilderberg Group? Actually, the whole Captain America movie seemed to be a story about how the New World Order might rise to power.

I’m kind of skipping around, but back to the movie and how it begins. Cap and a bunch of agents are sent to free hostages and recover stolen data from a hijacked warship. As the film progresses they discover that the kidnappings were part of a government sanctioned operation. Back in our world these are known as False Flag operations, and there are many people who believe our government uses these False Flag operations to manipulate the People into giving away their freedom. This is, to my mind, where you have to tread very lightly and keep a healthy dose of skepticism.

I personally am not one of those people who buy into “9/11 was an inside job” hook line and sinker, but there are many people who do, and it is easy to understand why. There are so many unanswered questions and things that were covered up. Whatever you think about the tragedy, its plain to see that our world is completely different since that infamous date. Unending wars against an undefined enemy, post-traumatic national fear (there is a terrorist under your bed!), the self-proclaimed “Patriot” Act, economic collapse (in spite of what we’ve been told, we can’t afford all of this war. Can’t afford it financially or morally), Citizens United, government surveillance… and on… and on.

That paragraph above reminds me of Arnim Zola‘s point about how we have traded in our freedom for security, comfort and convenience. Sounds about right to me.

Speaking of Zola and government surveillance, didn’t Arnim Zola’s monitoring of American citizens in the film sound very similar to what Edward Snowden revealed about our own government?

And didn’t those new S.H.I.E.L.D / Hydra helicarriers sound an awful lot like government drones? Granted, they were fancy drones, but their function was the same. That is, anonymous death. Killing people from the sky.

I thought this might be a long post, but this has gotten L.O.N.G.

Another observation about the Winter Soldier himself. Didn’t his conditioning sound a lot like CIA sponsored MKUltra? Oh yeah, George Bush Sr. was a CIA Director. Haha, go figure.

One last thing… We should all remember what Italian fascist Mussolini said: “Fascism should more properly be called corporatism because it is the merger of state and corporate power.” Sound familiar, ehh? I guess Mussolini would know. With government bailouts, the Fed, Corporate Personhood, Citizens United, and many of our new policies written down by lawyers on little scraps of paper stink of fascism. Its plain to see that corporate interest and big finance trump the People pretty much every time. Can you say “Hail HYDRA”?

Anyway, it is great to be a skeptic. And I am skeptical about conspiracy 🙂 Very much so. But its also good to remember, “just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not after you!”

Geek Out!